Scars

Yo I'm pushing you away 'Cause every time we talk, it hurts Help me cure out my depression It gave me a sense of worth It's like you helped me out the mud And then shoved me in the dirt Now I'm stuck feeling like I'm the only person on the Earth

You were like my world And I watched it fall apart Now I'm drifting through the cosmos And circling the stars Help me put the blade down And close up all the scars But now my biggest scar Is the one up on my heart

If it took my life to be with you Then I would gladly give it Depression's an infection And you're the cure for the sickness Lately, I been trippin', and honestly I don't get it It was only three months, but it felt like a minute I'm stupid and annoying But that's only 'cause I care

And any time you need me, girl you know that I'll be there Most nights, I'm staring down a barrel It's too much to bear I'm afraid to let you go I'll admit I'm fucking scared And I hate being sober 'cause then I can feel the pain So I tell myself to numb it and then grab the fucking blade Watching as the droplets roll down my wrist like its rain And I don't wanna leave But you know that I can't stay