Not Hell, Not Heaven

All I wanted was protection Now the rage starts to eat at me Bite that tongue, disconnect it Should I learn how to shut my mouth? Medicated, it's out of my system Bitter taste of security In the end, will this answer my question? If not Hell, if not Heaven? Like the oceans, like the sea I'm possessed, you'll drown in me Listen, hear all Hell unleashed That's the sound of reckoning The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) The way it's eating me alive, oh The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) And my, my voice It shakes, it burns It licks the lips of doubt and finds you on your knees My dreams call for blood now You'll see that there's no way out These dreams call for blood now You'll see there's no way out Just lie in the bed that you made Let truth burn holes in the sheet Set fire and set you free Swallow you like it did me Like the oceans, like the sea I'm possessed, you'll drown in me Listen, hear all Hell unleashed That's the sound of reckoning The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) The way it's eating me alive, oh The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) And my, my voice It shakes, it burns It licks the lips of doubt and finds you on your knees It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) The way it's eating me alive, oh The guilt will swallow you up (Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising) And my, my voice