Apartment

Momentarily I felt you there While I fumbled through all those photographs in the book In a small apartment I’m getting older It feels like falling and not in the way that I want Turning pages of smiling faces It is unfamiliar I’ve been faking lately There’s a dizzy feeling Creeping up my spine Bonded friendly and memorized Sharpen swiftly I’m then reminded Of the insincerity I now embody I am colder now You wouldn’t recognize me I’m colder now And I’m not alright I’m not alright (ahhh) Nowadays when you lie in bed Who is it lying in your head? Is it love you make or do you take instead? Love you make or do you take instead? Are you broken now so you choose to bend? I wouldn’t ask you if I didn’t feel the same 'Cause yeah I’m colder now It’s just who I became Yeah I’m colder now And I’m not alright I’m not alright (ah) And someday sooner than I’d like I see a photo of you in white With someone there by your side With a different face than mine With a smile you only liked I do a feeling you have to fight You knew of heavier love when you were younger It left a taste in your mouth that still lingers I teach a lesson in compromise Still I often wonder why You know of heavier loss now that you’re older It leaves a pain in your heart that gets triggered 'Cause I’ll exist only in your mind You stay busy and I’ll stay quiet Drop a line when you’ve got the time And maybe let me know that you’re alright I hope you’re alright