Apartment

Momentarily I felt you there

While I fumbled through all those photographs in the book

In a small apartment I’m getting older

It feels like falling and not in the way that I want

Turning pages of smiling faces

It is unfamiliar

I’ve been faking lately

There’s a dizzy feeling

Creeping up my spine

Bonded friendly and memorized

Sharpen swiftly

I’m then reminded

Of the insincerity

I now embody

I am colder now

You wouldn’t recognize me

I’m colder now

And I’m not alright

I’m not alright (ahhh)

Nowadays when you lie in bed

Who is it lying in your head?

Is it love you make or do you take instead?

Love you make or do you take instead?

Are you broken now so you choose to bend?

I wouldn’t ask you if I didn’t feel the same

'Cause yeah I’m colder now

It’s just who I became

Yeah I’m colder now

And I’m not alright

I’m not alright (ah)

And someday sooner than I’d like

I see a photo of you in white

With someone there by your side

With a different face than mine

With a smile you only liked

I do a feeling you have to fight

You knew of heavier love when you were younger

It left a taste in your mouth that still lingers

I teach a lesson in compromise

Still I often wonder why

You know of heavier loss now that you’re older

It leaves a pain in your heart that gets triggered

'Cause I’ll exist only in your mind

You stay busy and I’ll stay quiet

Drop a line when you’ve got the time

And maybe let me know that you’re alright

I hope you’re alright