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[Intro] I can't believe it's been a year since I kissed my fears On their salty lips and said to them, "I love you all!" [Post-Chorus] I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For twenty years, and look at me now! [Verse 1] I've got something to say About the last twelve months I've lived I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you should know [Pre-Chorus] I take a pill every day to help me deal with life [Chorus] And oh my god, I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all [Post-Chorus] I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For twenty years, and look at me now! [Verse 2] I've got something to say About the family that I've lost I hope my mother and my father think That they raised a healthy boy [Pre-Chorus] Who needs the help of a shrink to even leave the house [Chorus] And oh my god, I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all [Verse 3] I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you, I just thought you should know I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you, I just thought you should know [Post-Chorus] I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders For twenty years, and look at me now! And now, and now I'm finding a way to forget everything that I know! [Bridge] I can't believe it's been a year since I kissed my fears On their salty lips and said to them, "I love you all!" [Breakdown] Don't ask, just follow, repeat, and swallow Don't ask, just swallow them, down your throat Don't ask, just swallow, repeat, and follow Don't ask, just swallow them, down your throat [Verse 4] My best friend is a man with a lab coat and a grin, I hold my Shaking hand and he gives me medicine, it almost makes me feel At home, but they slowly steal my soul, I tell him, "I still feel alone" "Don't worry, someday, I promise you will feel whole..." [Outro] And oh my god, I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of And oh my god, I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of And oh my god, I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of...