My Good Deed

I tried to save a girl I truly loved And didn't quite know how to help her So now she's sleeping as her parents up above Cry over things that they can't tell her And when I did my good deed I thought I'd feel unbroken gladness But standing in the street alone I just felt sinking sadness Girl, your dad will not us bless So hang up your veil and dress Look at me and take one guess Where this best-intentioned love will lead us I once felt a feeling fully through Though I knew I shouldn't feel it Because to act on it I'd be a person Who should be slapped into a straitjacket So every time it comes around I just let it die inside me You said, "I only come around Because I just need you to hide me" So we knelt in those dead weeds Sticks and sharp rocks cutting into our knees And I thought that we would freeze But there was just too much warm blood in our bodies I'm not going to make you take the pills Though you should really think about it The fire by which we both were almost killed Glowed so beautiful, don't doubt it But we have to make a choice now Can we glow without it? There's a space I tried to fill But I'm seeing now I never will You fly around while I stand still Until I slowly just get smaller and smaller I tried to save a girl I truly loved And I never would desert her But we both found out that I was dreaming Of the day I thoroughly could hurt her And I saw myself inside her eyes This shrinking would-be savior Resented her for never needing help And couldn't wait just to betray her So we drove back to her place From the temporary home that we had made And I stepped back into the street Feeling the fullest moment of my life Slowly shrink away from me With my good deed