Bile

Ferociousness between the sheets to prove that you’re a man You’re flexing hard with rubber arms oh you’re falling apart fast But if you could just get back your 20s Or fuck some of mine out of me Cum your youth Or spit and spew Your vile between my knees Show me what you think I’m worth to you Let’s make three wishes and hope that one comes true Just Fuck me for my budding self esteem It’s worth more to you Than it will ever be to me And if it’s my body that you want Well No one’s ever called me a tease A small glance a tiny gesture It’s all that I need And Those Bar guys with their starry eyes They’re not going anywhere And those angels in their winter coats They’re still trying to get in here And substance abuse is for the youth I’m just being who I am Settled in to the bitter end I can hear them building my cross now Are you Fucking me or my body image Here’s some pictures go have fun with them I taste a little bile in your kiss I taste a little desperation in this situation And it turns you on To know that I’ll be gone While you wade in your sin and redemption How does it feel to be disciplined How does it feel to be so undesirable Throw up when you feel full Being pretty is the only thing that we should be worried about Look how they look at you now See how they look at you now They tried to plant the seed of faith in calorie counters and small plates Portion control is your soul You could look just like that If heaven was a star lit parking lot binge of denial All the bartenders said you look pretty tonight Ain’t that nice Well that’s what you wanted