Suicidal Revenge

[Intro] Suicide's a major public health problem in this country And like other external causes of death—accidents, homicides Suicides are also considered an external cause of death It might be that we don't know for sure if somebody really intends to or not And the individual might not be certain either But we certainly want to give them some help [Verse 1] The more that I try, the more that I want More that I grind, the more that I shine The more that I stride, the more that I stunt The more that I preach, the more that they leave The more that I cry, the harder to trust The harder to love, the harder, the harder The more I lie, the harder to die The more I leave, I'm harder to love I'm harder to teach My heart is a beat and I am the drum I'm harder to keep, but harder to sleep I’m scared of the dark, I'm not gonna run I'm harder to break, but harder to make You get in my way, I'm drawing my blade I'm not gonna play, I'm not for the games I'm not gonna change, put that on my fam Put that on my mum, put that on my sis Put that on my niggas and all of my friends Put that on my team, put that on my G's I say what I mean, you already know I'm harder to love but I’m harder to break I'm the real, I’m not the fake You should accept it, we make mistakes But I know I sound insane And to the fake Don't call me your bro, don't call me no more, I call you a trick I’m tired of the hate, I'm tired of the snakes I'm tired of your face, you're all on my dick You wanted me to fall, you wanted me to crawl You wanted me to stall, you want me on drugs You want me to fail, you want me in jail They wantin' my soul, they wantin' my blood I'm out for revenge, I'm out for the ends I'm out for respect, I'm out for the crown I'm out for the reign, they startin' to aim I'm going insane, whats with my brain I’m getting migraine I wanted to be safe But I’m not saved, I don’t wanna live, I don’t wanna be alive I wanted to die, wooo [Chorus] I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Whoo, yeah) I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (Blaow, blaow) You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Yeah) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Uh, whoo) I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Nah, yeah) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (Yeah) [Verse 2] So tell me how am I the only one that’s been turned away? When I’ve given you my friendship, time, and money to donate You’d rather you’re yes men then me anyways You don’t care how I’ve been so cut out I’ve been let down, I’ve been pulled down I’ve been though every betrayal that you can think off right now All you fake pussies friends took my money and laugh it out You say I’m asshole but actually I help people out You never had the balls to tell me the truth of the cause But you used me and that’s all I’ve done with 2019, I'm done with anyone else I’m done with the fact I’ve been loyal and that doesn't mean shit now 'Cause now I had to go find myself, I killed and buried my friends 'Cause I’m better off without They left me drown and no one's reaching out They see nothing but evil inside of me now [Chorus] I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Yeah) I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (repeat nah) You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Now) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (wheel it up) I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep (Whoo, in my sleep) I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (Whoo) You say you were there for me so explain the then and now (Nah, now) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself [Verse 3] I remember the birthdays, I remember the time I was there in hospital with you And don’t lie, come on, just tell the truth I’m done with this denial shit, I’m done with your shit Don’t be a bitch, there’s no civil ship There’s no loyalty in your heart, why disrespect it? You twisting my words, no comprehendin' it If my pen was a gun you all would be shot in under minute People sayin' I’m a villain but there’s no Harley quittin' One day, I get the cash comin' in Only my family will be the ones that’ll be eating No more, "I'll pay you back when I get some money in" While I mix my vodka with some Monster Energy I stay awake but feeling wavy, yeah I’ve done some bad shit, I’ll admit I'll take responsibility then be a selfish prick You should accept that we make mistakes And I know I sound insane To the fake, don't call me your bro, don't call me no more, yeah [Chorus] I’m out for revenge that I cut them in my sleep I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (and repeat) You say you were there for me, so explain the then and now (Then and now) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (By myself now) I’m out for revenge, then I cut them in my sleep (In my sleep) I kill them then I kill myself then wake up and repeat (and repeat) You say you were there for me, so explain the then and now (Then and now) 'Cause it seems I’ve been rolling on my own by myself (Man) [Outro] The more that I try, the more that I want More that I grind, the more that I shine The more that I stride, the more that I stunt The more that I preach, the more that they leave The more that I cry, the harder to trust The harder to love The harder to lie, the harder to die The more I leave, I'm harder to love, uh