Now What?

Sleepless again I'm always overthinking the past The present and the future Staring at the ceiling in the dark I finally Have what I always wanted, a house My baby slowly growing but hey My bed is always empty And now what? There's always something missing here Now what? I think it's clear I take after my father Always so scared of dying alone Without having done anything great Where's the girl With the carefree smile And a giant heart And a fearless mind? Where is she now? Why is she scared? And what is it that She's looking for? And now what? There's always something missing here Now what? Everything That I've always wanted To get Is finally granted Everything That I've always wanted To get Is finally granted And now what? It's sad to see I could never be The one you think You know who I am I don't hold up To your highest standards Nobody can Nobody will You were a dream I made you up None of it's real None of it's real I told myself Never again Never again But here I am And I'm begging you To please teach me How to live my life In harmony