Now What?

Sleepless again
I'm always overthinking the past
The present and the future
Staring at the ceiling in the dark

I finally
Have what I always wanted, a house
My baby slowly growing but hey
My bed is always empty

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?

I think it's clear
I take after my father
Always so scared of dying alone
Without having done anything great

Where's the girl
With the carefree smile
And a giant heart
And a fearless mind?

Where is she now?
Why is she scared?
And what is it that
She's looking for?

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?

Everything
That I've always wanted
To get
Is finally granted

Everything
That I've always wanted
To get
Is finally granted
And now what?

It's sad to see
I could never be
The one you think
You know who I am

I don't hold up
To your highest standards
Nobody can
Nobody will

You were a dream
I made you up
None of it's real
None of it's real

I told myself
Never again
Never again
But here I am

And I'm begging you
To please teach me
How to live my life
In harmony