THOUGHT PARK

[Verse] Associating Songer with Toxic Well here's a project where I'm toxic From my goals to yours, let's run it or box-to-box it Sitting on the dock of the bay, that's a classic record Give me ten and then that dock where my yacht sit Take cream of the crop shit I sold seeds but never reaping the crop shit I'm lucky writing, talking bout my life is an option Apart from all my freestyles, refuse to be boxed in My surname's got powers but my name isn't Austin I'm here and I'm top tier I'm human, I've got fear This a little window to my life and then in summer I've gone clear I live at Thought Park, it's up and downs for the whole year I ain't wrote a song whilst I've been laying in my bed for time These days we're laughing in it, tryna get the covers dry I kiss my teeth when she squirt Damn bitch, this my office but I'll let it slide, baby don't apologise My lyric book will know me by my scary side I used to write to cope, now I get a flight There's airport security I recognise Hate comments coming, now it's televised It hurts but I can empathise It's hard to make decisions under microscopes It's just at a different point now Silence in a room, I tell myself to keep my voice down Internal monologue, he thinks we're boys now He says things I didn't even think Till I'm waking up hungover and I didn't even drink Brain's jaded, I'm thinking wide words, I'm Craig David Everybody's saving for the same bracelet I save change to change places It's hard to take favours I don't even know his name, it's just a fake alias We're just the same strangers Some are bitter, I can see how love and hate wavers I kinda get it, I earn money from his bae's playlist Or drum and bass stages I never took hands out to chase status Worked hard, remain patient Those who hate anonymously will remain nameless That's not the way to the top of the food chain I was looking at the clouds, still think of the zoot stain I've been doing up and downs, reminiscing on Tuesday In this roller-coaster mind at Thought Park I love when our thoughts spark and it turn into Doomsday Sometimes I wish I could cry Not cause I wanna be sad but cause I wanna be fine I think if I could shed a tear then I'd know I'm alright Cause it's hard to get a grip of where you stand When everything feels numb Sometimes I think I'm alone With a thousand different numbers texting, calling my phone I don't wanna pick it up, I wanna talk to myself Cause it's hard to get a grip of where you stand When everything feels numb This roller-coaster mind at Thought Park is up and down So I had nightmares of fulfilling my dreams, instability screams People try and judge my soul by what they see on their screens But when I make it, know I made it just because I was me This project reminds you who I am I'm not a viral fucking TikTok, I'm a son I'm the guy who made my debut, so much pressure on myself I compared that shit to bullet from a gun I chase a version of myself, I never chase the fame They want a version of myself that is some kind of shame I can deal with added pressure cause the game's the game Price of therapy for me is that I'm rarely sane