Bellyache

Woke up far from home with a pattern on my face Another night on the couch TV on, I'm faced away Another night in the AC Trying to find some room to breathe in the arms of a stranger But it is what it is and all this shit is worthless Take the five to my name and I'll buy something frivolous Like the love I need Not some pills, a reunion show Or a face to swipe off my screen Well, I woke up a year older in a city in the south Wander room to room like a ghost that can't get out But I need to get outside End the war inside my mind like a march to the ocean If I stand in the land where my forefathers stood Shooting guns at their brothers 'Cause some prick said they should Maybe I can feel at ease at my eternal lack of peace That this joke isn't funny I think someone wants to kill me But I don't think I can fix this if I found god And there's no drug in the world That can possibly wash this off Can't even go down to the river And stick my fucking head in it I'll watch the world spin I'll lay around in it I am a perfect fit I've been dreaming in languages I don't understand I've got spirits watching over me They refuse my filthy hands I've been coming to terms with our life And how we're all gonna die the same – Forgotten in a year by the ones we love on a Tuesday morning But I don't think I can fix this if I found god And there's no drug in the world That can possibly wash this off Can't even go down to the river And stick my fucking head in it I'll die just how I lived Stealing from some I found great Showing up a year too late Now, the water is gone Now the love is gone Now, the future is gone And I'll just lay here, but it's never gonna come No it's never gone come But I don't think I can fix this if I found god And there's no drug in the world That can possibly wash this off Can't even go down to the river And stick my fucking head in it I'll watch the world spin I'll lay around in it I am a perfect fit