Heavenhead (feat. illuminati hotties)

I'll end up on a hill Converted care home Pulling on oxygen Intent on collapsing You were here 20 years ago Told me to be more compassionate They found your car in the lake With the girl from your soccer team Your parents ignored it My heavenhead I'm afraid to admit When the boatman comes my way I'll be standing on the shore Begging for that tidal wave Holding onto your hand Said I ain't died young so I guess I'm no good Yeah my dad gave me a good life And I wasted everything I could You said the pain will find me That my head don't fit in the socket right Why waste my time with changing Baby that shit's overrated My heavenhead I'm afraid to admit When the boatman comes my way I'll be standing on the shore Begging for that tidal wave It's my head under our first car You're backlit on the driveway My fist into the dry wall It always ends the same Hanging in the doorframe And all my neurons firing Over your shoulder in the mirror And the thought it sends me spiraling And I'm afraid to admit When the boatman comes my way I'll be standing on the shore Begging for that tidal wave