autobiography

[Verse 1: aldn & Billie Eilish] I was nineteen when I started the Percocets Cut off a piece of the pill and I snorted it How could I know I was nodding off fent' Fucked up my head, I was spending your rent Flew out to L.A. so I could get peace Fucked with a girl and she turned to a fiend How could I blame her? She got it from me Back to Virginia, I flew her for free (It's not true) Couple months later, she's sick in my bed with me Fight over pills and she turned to an enemy Losing my love, I was losing my empathy (Tell me I've been lied to) I was a shell of the person I used to be Then I turned twenty, I'm going on tour Had to get sober, Suboxone and more Still with the girl, but we going through war (Crying isn't like you, ooh) Always together, together we swore I fucked up my ego and treated her wrong A month into tour and I thought she was gone Gave up on calling and then I moved on But when I got back, she was there all along Still on the Percocet, let me relapse I couldn't blame her, I wanted it bad I had to leave and get into my bag But sometimes I stay up and still want her back [Verse 2] Turned twenty-two and I got into Benzos Everyone told me that I shouldn't try those I didn't care because I was depressed God looking down on me seemed like a test Met a new girl just because I got lonely Even though I didn't think I was ready Couldn't stop pushing away everybody Swear I just wanted somebody to love me Checked into rehab with nothing to lose Talking to Tyler and listen to Blues Passing the time up until I got home And when I got home, never felt more alone The girl who was mad every day I was gone Somehow she thought that I lied I was gone Back to L.A., I went back on my own Argued with her every night on the phone Broke up with her and she told all my fans Fucked up the story to make me look bad But I don't get mad now, I understand Two broken people will always be sad Still growing up but I know what we had Never forget and I'll keep it at that Weezy and I had to stick to the plan But sometimes I stay up and still want her back [Outro: Billie Eilish] (Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh) Up all night On another red—, fly (Extorting) I wish we never learned to fly I