autobiography

[Verse 1: aldn & Billie Eilish]

I was nineteen when I started the Percocets

Cut off a piece of the pill and I snorted it

How could I know I was nodding off fent'

Fucked up my head, I was spending your rent

Flew out to L.A. so I could get peace

Fucked with a girl and she turned to a fiend

How could I blame her? She got it from me

Back to Virginia, I flew her for free (It's not true)

Couple months later, she's sick in my bed with me

Fight over pills and she turned to an enemy

Losing my love, I was losing my empathy (Tell me I've been lied to)

I was a shell of the person I used to be

Then I turned twenty, I'm going on tour

Had to get sober, Suboxone and more

Still with the girl, but we going through war (Crying isn't like you, ooh)

Always together, together we swore

I fucked up my ego and treated her wrong

A month into tour and I thought she was gone

Gave up on calling and then I moved on

But when I got back, she was there all along

Still on the Percocet, let me relapse

I couldn't blame her, I wanted it bad

I had to leave and get into my bag

But sometimes I stay up and still want her back

[Verse 2]

Turned twenty-two and I got into Benzos

Everyone told me that I shouldn't try those

I didn't care because I was depressed

God looking down on me seemed like a test

Met a new girl just because I got lonely

Even though I didn't think I was ready

Couldn't stop pushing away everybody

Swear I just wanted somebody to love me

Checked into rehab with nothing to lose

Talking to Tyler and listen to Blues

Passing the time up until I got home

And when I got home, never felt more alone

The girl who was mad every day I was gone

Somehow she thought that I lied I was gone

Back to L.A., I went back on my own

Argued with her every night on the phone

Broke up with her and she told all my fans

Fucked up the story to make me look bad

But I don't get mad now, I understand

Two broken people will always be sad

Still growing up but I know what we had

Never forget and I'll keep it at that

Weezy and I had to stick to the plan

But sometimes I stay up and still want her back

[Outro: Billie Eilish]

(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)

Up all night

On another red—, fly

(Extorting)

I wish we never learned to fly

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