Faking It

There is an incredulousness That accompanies my depressed existence It asks how on earth I am getting through this So how on earth am I getting through this? The question repeats and repeats I stare blankly in disbelief How am I standing? How am I alive? How am I making it seem like it's fine? The question repeats and repeats Staring blankly in disbelief At pictures of me And I wonder, who is this? I don't recognize that smile How is it so convincing? I don't recognize that life Inside it feels like I am dying It's weird to know I wasn't happy That's just how I made it seem An illusion of positivity I will never live up to these lies I will never be worth your time There is an incredulousness That accompanies my depressed existence It asks how on earth I am getting through this So how on earth am I getting through this? The question repeats and repeats I stare blankly in disbelief How am I standing? How am I alive? How am I making it seem like it's fine? The question repeats and repeats It repeats and repeats and repeats Staring blankly in disbelief At pictures of me And I wonder, who is this? I don't recognize that smile How is it so convincing? I don't recognize that life Inside it feels like I am dying It's weird to know I wasn't happy That's just how I made it seem An illusion of positivity I don't feel joy I just fake it I don't feel hope I just fake it I don't feel love I just fake it I don't feel real Nothing is sacred I don't feel joy I just fake it I don't feel hope I just fake it I don't feel love I just fake it I don't feel real I just fake it I don't feel joy I just fake it I don't feel hope I just fake it I don't feel love I just fake it Nothing is sacred