Slippers

When I get older Would I still be standing In the winter Wearing slippers, and missing you When life is different And I lose my reason To hold you Could I forget you, even if I should? Cuz when I'm drunk and lonely driving after dark Singing the words I'd never say You wouldn't think it but honey it breaks my heart To know that I will never change Stomach churning Anxious mid-day burning I tried to douse it But I can't help it anymore And what if I'm tired Of the manic choir Every weekend When I'm weak and I'm on the floor So when I'm drunk and lonely driving after dark Singing the words I'd never say Cuz you don't know how bad it really breaks my heart To know that I will never change I'll never change, I'll never change I'll never change Oh don't you worry dear I'm out the door Cut the lights and keep the showers short Save money that I'll never spend For a future that was never meant You were right my dear the devil won In the end I'm still my fathers son Yeah I am still my fathers son And in the mix of drywall and cement Carve my name in with a fountain pen Dot the 'i' and cross the letter 'n' Then I can sell the house and close the blinds Whatever's left be left behind You'll never see me again And I'll never miss you my friend I'll never be me again