Slippers

When I get older
Would I still be standing
In the winter
Wearing slippers, and missing you

When life is different
And I lose my reason
To hold you
Could I forget you, even if I should?

Cuz when I'm drunk and lonely driving after dark
Singing the words I'd never say
You wouldn't think it but honey it breaks my heart
To know that I will never change

Stomach churning
Anxious mid-day burning
I tried to douse it
But I can't help it anymore

And what if I'm tired
Of the manic choir
Every weekend
When I'm weak and I'm on the floor

So when I'm drunk and lonely driving after dark
Singing the words I'd never say
Cuz you don't know how bad it really breaks my heart
To know that I will never change

I'll never change, I'll never change I'll never change
Oh don't you worry dear I'm out the door
Cut the lights and keep the showers short
Save money that I'll never spend
For a future that was never meant
You were right my dear the devil won
In the end I'm still my fathers son
Yeah I am still my fathers son
And in the mix of drywall and cement
Carve my name in with a fountain pen
Dot the 'i' and cross the letter 'n'
Then I can sell the house and close the blinds
Whatever's left be left behind
You'll never see me again
And I'll never miss you my friend
I'll never be me again