He stepped through the doorway he felt the presence of a person
He said darkness is your candle, on his head he wore a turban
He said be curious, darkness will not drown you
Begin the journey into yourself, you'll see that you found you
You can't outrun your shadow but sometimes it's in the front
He said you are yourself all the demons that you hunt
You've been washing wounds with blood and acting alive
Enough talk of being on some path, let the way itself arrive
He threw his brokеn soul compass I heard the glass shatter
Hе sat down in the darkness laughing like nothing mattered
Cuz there’s no song you can make or substance you can take
To make the anxiety go away and make you feel safe
You got to sit with the feelings, breathe em and work through them
Or your body will store them if you ignore em it'll ruin you
He thought but if my devils leave me, what will I be left with?
He said you're scared of uncertainty, it's fear you're obsessed with
He walked barefoot over the broken glass of his heart
It levitated in the air and reassembled its shards
He saw his friends coffin, he saw the milligrams that got him
He saw his friends ashes, the sarcomas and masses
He saw the bank putting a lock on his family home
He saw the pain he boxed up cuz the truth he couldn't rationally own
He saw his friend's name on the news barricaded in his home
When the cops came in he died by suicide and alone
He saw his friend's body he used to drive forklifts with
He shot himself in the head after one of their night shifts
He saw the hate in the cops face, he searched me for drugs
I saw my own hair blowing in the wind like feathers from a dove
I heard my ears ringing from fists on Jersey on Colfax
I’m losing my breath, now I got chest tubes, my lungs collapsed
Heavy phone calls, stray bullets and rock throwing
North side, South side, why'd Greg get stabbed up just for going?
Broken screws in my knee, deflated basketballs and surgery
My friend gave me his stuff then took his life and departed to eternity
Basketball game knife fight, stealing rims, and selling weed
Now I’m getting jumped on King St I’m 12 watching my ear bleed
Saw a man get stabbed to death at Berkeley when I was 10
I see a child escaping to fantasy and realize I'm him
Trauma you can't solve it but you can release and acknowledge it
He stopped ignoring his body, his emotions he felt all of em
He felt anxiety in his stomach and guilt in his fists
He breathed and listened, that's when he finally heard Chris
He was back in his childhood kitchen he saw the yellow laminate
He ran up the stairs and found Chris hiding in the cabinet
I put my sword down I saw I was protecting my inner child
I wiped the tears from his face and said hey it's been a while
I said it's all over, I love you it's safe now
Those things never should have happened to you I’m here it’s ok now
I see you and I hear you, you always tried your best
You're a survivor you no longer need to hide you deserve rest
It's ok to feel lonely, your feelings are valid kid
What happened to you was not your fault, you overcame challenges
I honor our journey together, thank you for teaching me
Thank you for your courageous yell, it was reaching me
Our ancestors are in each cell of our body
I found the inner children of my parents we held each other sobbing
We gave each other permission to heal in my soul I felt a spark
We left our old home holding hands it started getting dark
Me and little Chris we're rapping laughing and exchanging bars
We all enjoyed the sunset and together counted stars
