Unconscious Transmissions

How can you battle what you don't even know? I walked into the coliseum looking for my shadow The audience was my biases, my trauma, my wounds My laziness, my selfishness, my greed to consume The ref said you need to meet yourself let me introduce A hole appeared in the floor, he pushed me to the truth I fell down the slide I saw my ego and abuse I saw my cowardice and my unpleasant qualities I saw my insecurities and animosities I saw parts of my psyche that i wasn't aware of I saw parts i abandoned, I should have repaired em I found islands in my mind that I refused to acknowledge I tried to find the light but I didn't have the wattage He said put out the torch the treasure's in the darkness When you find home in the dark you'll see shadows are harmless And every time you deny them they always get stronger And every time you try a shortcut the path gets longer Stumbling through the dark I found fangs, claws, and friends I saw my weapon was blame, unconscious patterns within I surrender intention it's a limitation A tree just grows, it flows with creation I was projecting my shadow onto others seeing enemies I had to sever the victim as part of my identity I'm trying to integrate my shadow and merge my sides I'm trying to trace the roots and see where triggers collide Scuba diving the unconscious the sinister spaces Active imagination, uncomfortable places I found a cave in the abyss it led to the dream realm It had a type of honesty that a scream held Voices in the static, unconscious transmissions Trying to decipher the rhythm the patterns have wisdom Trying to uncensor myself with journaling and meditation I'm trying to reverse engineer the projection with patience Success has nothing to do with the shadow or art Light can only be found when you emerge from the dark There's no answer on the way to assimilate your shadow Every time you think you've won you restart the battle