J.A.P.A.N.

I'm fuckin' tired of this So fuck it, so fuck it Are you listening? I'm digging into your thoughts It's been a long time since you and I have talked I've had a hard in this shit, the shit I call life And I bet you're better off without being in mine Do you know how hard it is to try to be a man? And being lost in a world he doesn't understand? All these fucking years, feeling like I'm nothing All I ever wanted, was for you to fucking love me You should be ashamed of yourself, fuck you and your fucked up mind cause you abandoned me And you'll never be a man cause we can clearly see; that I'll be better off without You're fucking worthless to me Why the fuck did you leave me? What the fuck did I do to you? Can you answer this question? Or will you just let it through your head? All the fucking years and I've still yet to feel Like anyone could give a fuck because I constantly deal With the absence of importance, such a long lasting pain All because you didn't want to be a father to me (you piece of shit) Because of you my whole life has been hell to live I'm nothing close to a man and I got nothing to give (not even a man) I'm just so empty, so bitter and broken It's not a grudge that I'm holding, it's the hatred that was born within You gave up before you could even try Fuck me for believing in you But I just know; I don't get it, and I never will Because this will never make Sense to me I felt like a sick dog when you put me down Years later still standing take a look at me now Take a look at me now Take a look at me now