KILLING ALCHEMY

I got my Heart lost in turmoil Spirit in a hole Sinking deeper in the depth Lower than it goes Grimy like a fiend Yea I been cravin more I put myself in harms way Because I gotta know Why you do wrong to me The pushin and forth And when I curse about you I still don't feel remorse It's like a thousand knives Forced into my eyes Carving out the shape of you So incandescent Fuck givin into what you did Tryna fool me by demeaning Everything I've been Hoe You should've kept it At the absence Know I don't need you Cause lately I feel like I'm lackin My cadence I'm ruminating Hesitation Cause it's the same cycle I'm so sick of all the waiting To burn slow My back to the wall A fire in my chest I feel it ripping through my flesh Leave me restless Ain't no coming back This is forever You got a stronghold With no chance to break Killing alchemy What you doin to me? Get out of my head All that talk is cheap Nevermore to be Nothing more to me And I should know how When im with company All the misery Drives me wickedly I ain't myself Cause you took a toll on me Killing alchemy Killing alchemy Do you know the animosity You think I show Do you know the reason Why I'll never let it go Good riddance Knock off the dust Abrasive I need to clear my mind X it off Just as I face em And thank you for the venom But I'd rather use my own Ain't no need for all the dealing I'll destroy myself alone Pessimistic Mindfucked So sadistic Cause every fuckin thought I form It's got me feelin twisted Demented Of my volition I'm missin The part of me That never felt like someone was suspicious I'm faithless Don't have discretion For no one Cause everyone around me Is a factor of the build up Destruction If I explode I'll make As a statement But you don't get to walk away Because I'm fuckin caving Thats bullshit I'll see you in hell motherfucker You got a stronghold With no chance to break Killing alchemy What you doin to me? Get out of my head All that talk is cheap Nevermore to be Nothing more to me And I Should know how When im with company All the misery Drives me wickedly I ain't myself Cause you took a toll on me Killing alchemy Killing alchemy Conflicted by detriment Why the fuck would you Watch me living in turmoil This animosity I wonder if you ever face Your pain alone Conflicted by detriment Why the fuck would you do What you never would tell So every day I hope That I'll see you in hell motherfucker Oh You got a stronghold With no chance to break I'll live in agony And see you in hell