DIFFICULT

[Verse 1] Every night, on the calm down When no one's there to watch me, who am I? And I get high, but I'm still lonely When all the noise around me gets too quiet [Pre-Chorus] Got anxiety on my rider I got lipstick on my Bible And my body's fucking tired and I think that I'm gonna be the death of me I might I might I might lose the best of me [Chorus] Can you tell that I've been putting me through hell Trying to put myself But I make it fucking difficult Why's it gotta be so fucking difficult? Do you know the devil on my shoulder knows me way too well I'm just trying to be enough for myself But I make it fucking difficult Why I gotta be so fucking difficult? [Chorus] Lately I've been frontin' like I'm the fucking baddest Truth is I can't even see myself in my reflection Why do I let these thoughts run on my skin? And why do I hate the body that I'm in? [Pre-Chorus] Got anxiety on my rider I got lipstick on my Bible And my body's fucking tired and I think that I'm gonna be the death of me I might I might I might lose the best of me [Chorus] Can you tell that I've been putting me through hell Trying to put myself But I make it fucking difficult Why's it gotta be so fucking difficult? Do you know the devil on my shoulder knows me way too well I'm just trying to be enough for myself But I make it fucking difficult Why I gotta be so fucking difficult? [Bridge] Uhm- Uhm-Uhm-Uhm-Uhm Difficult Uhm-Uhm [Outro] And I get high, but I'm still lonely When all the noise around me gets too quiet