Gutted (I'll Spill)

This is what I get for being an artist Spilling my guts, to keep me honest Leading with my heart knowing I’ll destroy it They say this is as good as it gets It was hard to be different I never understood what I did wrong Always been a problem child, the fucked up kid I guess it is what it is But now I got this mean streak, still an outsider Incomplete, still learning life’s dismal disease Will it ever get better? Cause I’ve been waiting 20 years yet I’m still bitter It’s a dog eat dog world And I promise it’ll break your heart Nobody gives a shit that you tried And I’m tired of thinking I’ll survive This is what I get for being an artist Spilling my guts, to keep me honest Leading with my heart knowing I’ll destroy it This is as good as it gets? Honestly Life’s still a cold bitch Life’s still a cold bitch