twenty/eight

I don't wanna keep fighting I don't wanna wish for the best We all know what's coming Been 28 years of this Waiting for yet another relapse Something else I can't ever fix Become a whole different person Someone no one will ever miss I don't fucking want this I don't wanna keep fighting I don't wanna wish for the best We all know what's coming Been 28 years of this I don't want this But I still have shit to do When I know it's over I'm not rotting in some fucking room Repeat the process to stay alive Watch the hope inside of you die Feel the medication burn your insides And tell everyone you're fine This wasn't my choice But it's all that I know You suffer right through and you put on a show Don't worry about me, don't worry about it If I'm dying in my youth, well, I can't really stop it What is the price of life When it just turns to survival? Losing everyone you love Putting yourself on idle When can you say that you can't take anymore? Seeing yourself through the mirror Watching as your body deplores Why the need for so much gruesome graphic violence? Why not let us— Because it's so much fun, Jan How much until you break? Skin and bone, exposing your ribcage Another hospital stay, yeah, oh How much until you break? Fuck I don't wanna keep fighting I don't wanna wish for the best We all know what's coming Been 28 years of this Waiting for yet another relapse Something I'll never be able to fix Become a whole different person And have everyone think of me less I don't wanna live in a world Where everything I love has died I don't wanna live in a world When I'm just struggling to survive Life's not living in a hospital bed I'm not living when I'm just sick and depressed Life's a bitch Isn't it?