pain for fun (feat. St. Vincent)

There's always and always and always and always a need There's always and always and always and always a need When I see you smile, there's always that familiar feeling Somehow I'm not the only one, oh-oh There's always and always and always and always a need There's always and always and always and always a need When you start to cry I get that familiar feeling Somehow I'm not the only one, oh-oh I'm so close to tears I'm biting, holding back I'm so happy I could break down and cry Break down and cry So alone and so at home (ah-ah, ah-ah, ah, ooh) So alone and so at home I'm always and always and always and always in need I'm always and always and always and always in need When we lock our eyes, I hit my head on the ceiling I'm not the only one, oh-oh Always wanting something, yearning Feel indifferent, undeserving What am I, what am I now? And if I catch a glimpse of you while I hide Will you walk away from me and kill my pride? It's fine 'Cause I feel this pain for fun, oh-oh I'm so close to tears I'm biting, holding back I'm so happy I could break down and cry (ooh-ooh) Break down and cry So alone and so at home So alone and so at home