and then there's me

I lie awake almost every night
Knowing you're pulling some Aphrodite
Even my sister thinks I've lost my mind
Hung up on you
I think I'm making it much, much worse
Encouraging myself to act first
I wonder if I'm getting on your nerves
Thinking I'm smooth
Cause then there's you
Break of daylight
The way you move
The perfect playwright
And then there's you
Forbidden maybe
You hum your tune
Secure and steady
And then there's me
The way my hands shake
The way I speak
It never translates
How suddenly
My stubborn walls break
We're different leagues
'Cause then there's me
Then there's me
I know my place, I'm not near enough
To be considered and then inducted
In the genre of girls you've loved
Still I don't move on
I'm either gonna have to watch you date somebody else
Or I will have to find out for myself
How to convince you that I'm worth punching down
Cause then there's you
Break of daylight
The way you move
The perfect playwright
And then there's you
Forbidden maybe
You hum your tune
Secure and steady
And then there's me
The way my hands shake
The way I speak
It never translates
How suddenly
My stubborn walls break
We're different leagues
'Cause then there's me
Then there's me
I'm either gonna have to watch you date somebody else
Or I will have to find out for myself
How to convince you that I'm worth punching down
I'm either gonna have to watch you post her casually
Or I will have to take up gambling
And keep on reaching out in spite of me
'Cause then there's me
Then there's me