grown

I want to be little again
Break into backbends, rush of blood, headstands
I want to be little again
'Cause my back is bent and my head can't stand it now
I want to be little
I want to be thin and
I want to look brittle like bones and skin
I want to be little
As small as I can
But I'm only human

With my shoes so small
I felt ten feet tall
My potential reigned
Perfect for my age
You'd be mortified at how I glorify it
When I felt as small as I did

But I know that I've grown
So, I'll throw out the clothes I swore I'd keep
You know just in case
I could lose the weight
Or regress in age to fourteen

When my problems all were bound to resolve
In the comfort of my home
I'll still want to be little but
But it's good that I've grown

I wanna feel simple again
Running around with friends, sprint and kill our legs
I wanna feel simple again
I was guiltless in every chronic sin
I want to feel simple
I want to go to bars
I want to feel faultless, but still worthy of war
I want to feel simple
Could drown it in gin, but I know that won't fix it

For a soul so young
It's completely numb
Thinking for myself
At the cost of hell
You'd be mortified at how I glorify it
When I felt as wrong as I lived

But I know that I've grown
So, I'll throw out the clothes I swore I'd keep
You know just in case
I could lose the weight
Or regress in age to fourteen
When my problems all were bound to resolve
In the comfort of my home
I'll still want to be little but
It's so good that I've grown
I still want to be little
But it's good that I've grown

I know that I've grown
It's just more than I'd hoped
And I can't shrink
So I'll take up space
Rally all the grace
I am able as I grieve
How my problems all
Without doubt, resolved
In the comfort of my home
Where, I will always miss it a little
But it's clear that I've grown
I still want to be little
But it's good that I've grown