Ignore the Sun

You keep repeating the lines
I keep the fire inside
Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening
It's all so sickening

Outnumbered by these thoughts
I'm crawling in the dark
Faced down again, I'm blinded by the night
I'm separating emotions with lust
I just need something to numb me

Have you ever felt that you're not alive?
You're just simply existing
One day at a time
I often feel there's a hole in the plan
Like there's a deadline to happiness

You move on to endless endeavors
While I'm being lost in desperate beginnings

You keep repeating the lines
I keep the fire inside
Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening
Ignore the sun that's in your eyes
So you can watch me disappear

I don't want to feel anything at all
I still remember the words
There's a fire inside you
That will always guide you
To a place that you call home
But you stole it from me

This time I'll wait for the end
No desperate beginnings
This time I'll wait for the end
It's all so sickening
If this is heart, I will defeat it
If this is love, then I don't need it

You keep repeating the lines
I keep the fire inside
Don't want to hear, but your words are deafening
Ignore the sun that's in your eyes
So you can watch me disappear

All the voices inside my head
Keep telling me that I am sickening

And I feel the colors change in, change in me
And I see the fire slowly burning out

I always thought that life
It would be more than this (And I feel the colors)
Another pointless, repeating pattern (They change in)
Of who I will disappoint today (They change in me)
I need to go, but you want me to stay (And I see)
But I don't want to be here anymore (The fire)
Am I alive, or am I just fucking existing? (Slowly burning out)
It's just all so sickening

I don't want to be here anymore
I just want to find my place
I just want to find a way to stay the night
To stay the night, alone
I don't want to be here anymore
I just want to find my place
I just want to find a way to stay alive