Paralytic States

[Verse 1]

She could hear them fucking through those thin hotel walls

She heard babies crying, she heard laughter, she heard sirens

Red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes

Blood spilled out on the porcelain

The bathtub's overflowing

[Chorus]

Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[Verse 2]

Spread out face down on those stained cheap hotel sheets

She spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be

Cut her face wide open

Shaved the bone down thin

Pumped her lips up exaggerated

A fucked up kind of feminine

[Chorus]

Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[Verse 3]

Night time at the hotel

There was fighting in the hall

Thin chain lock to keep the world out

She held her breath till it was gone

Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror

In her dysphoria's reflection, she still saw her mother's son

[Chorus]

Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[Outro]

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over

No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow