bad again

I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time
The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah
I justify self-medicating by saying it's just this time
But one turned to two, and then three, now I see that they're warning signs

Slowly slipping, start to spiral
Caught myself in self-denial
Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (fuck)
I know myself and, no, I can't pretend
It's getting bad again

I'm watching my life from the passenger side of the train-wreck
Someone cut the brakes, but I don't even brace for the impact, yeah
I've been hit too many times to count
Wasting my energy, emptied my bank account
All for the sake of trying to change something that won't go away

Slowly sleeping, start to spiral
Caught myself in self-denial
Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (fuck)
I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end
I know myself and, no, I can't pretend
It's not too much for like giving up on this (like giving up)
It's getting bad

(Oh, it's getting bad again)
Hold my breath, I'm going under
Try to fight this, I don't wanna
Feel like sinking any longer
It's getting bad (it's getting bad again)
Hold my breath, I'm going under
Try to fight this, I don't wanna
Feel like sinking any longer

It's getting bad again
I know myself and, no, I can't pretend
I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end
I know myself and, no, I can't pretend
It's getting bad again