I Don't Want to Die Tonight

Blind in my steps
Am I falling
Just like every other Autumn leaf?

Bound to my flaws
Hanging vulnerable
In darkness on the ocean floor

If only I was separate from what I created

Maybe things would be better
If we undid this knot
And ended our hunger strike
Following in the footsteps of my grandmother
She welcomed all her pain
So I'm keeping any extra I made to myself
I wouldn't have expected anyone to notice it

Tonight I don't
I don't want to die
But tomorrow I might

Stuck to my false sense of self
Hanging vulnerable in darkness
We can't seem to ever get away from everything we want
What if I was only waiting for my chance to jump?

Tonight I don't
Don't want to get high
But tomorrow I might

I'll be prepared to die
I'll be prepared to die
Tonight
Kiss my mom and dad goodbye
I'll be prepared to die
Tonight