I Have Dreamed of You So Much

I have dreamed of you so much
That you're no longer real
Is there still time for me to reach your breathing body?
To kiss your mouth?
Make your dear voice come alive again?

I have dreamed of you so much
That my arms have grown used to
Being crossed on my chest as I hug your shadow
Would perhaps not bend to the shape of your body
For faced with the real form of what has haunted me
And governed me for so many days and years
I would surely become a shadow
The scalеs of feeling

I have dreamed of you so much
That surеly there is no more time for me to wake up
I sleep on my feet, pray to all forms of life and love
And you, the only one who counts for me today
I can no more touch your face and lips
Than touch the lips and face of some passerby

I, I have dreamed of you so much
Have walked so much, talked so much
Slept so much with your phantom
That perhaps the only thing left for me
Is to become a phantom among phantoms
A shadow a hundred times more shadow
Than the shadow that moves and grows
Moving brightly over the sun dial of your life