Caved In

[Verse 1: Spawn]

The door opened, in walked my brother

Terrified, teary-eyed, I'm wide open

Only to hear our father died

It's not true, I'm hopin'

I need some air, I'm chokin'

Get me off this ride, where's life goin'?

Feelin' I'm lost, I'm frozen

Suspended in mid-traumatized state

Why I'm chosen for this fate? I don't know

Head shakes back and forth emotional

Unsociable, not speakin'

Remainin' silent, cause I'm weakened

Deep inside I'm freakin'

Want my father back, I need him

Why's God cheatin'?

Takin' half the two that gave me life

My mind replaces thought, now no longer can I sleep at night

Not feelin' right, insecure, now what's my future lookin' like?

Ain't dealt with death before, age 11 and can't take no more

My hands on the floor cause my stomach's feelin' sick and I was mad at the Lord

Because he took him all too quick that day

On his way to pick me up, he never made it

Blamed it all on myself, therefore I dwelled in self-hatred

On a path called destruct, many thought I wouldn't make it

I hate it, the way I feel, but I just can't seem to shake it

Somebody take it away, this mad situation

My world is breakin', and I feel I'm 'bout to cave in

[Chorus: Spawn]

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood

[Verse 2: Spawn]

Hey dad, I miss you, for every day gone

And for the rest of my life, try to remain strong

Until we reunite, live on, your memory

From the seeds you planted gently

Thanks for being there for me

And all the time you spent with me

Love sent for me, if I could only have that day back

To sit down and rap, shoot the breeze and have a chat

But the fact still remains, still later, on the day I have to meet our maker

I write my feelings on the paper, for now

Along the golf course where you once played

I see you as I drive by, I feel you like your presence is there

I stop and I stare, I see the pictures of days we shared

Well aware that you cared, makin' sure I was prepared for life

The hardships, the struggles, the garbage, and the troubles

That come with it, always kept my head lifted

I grip it close to my heart, everything you taught me

My dad, my hero, you have my love for all eternity

[Chorus: Spawn]

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood

I tried to take it all in

After it all settled I couldn't begin

Accepting you were gone, but understood