Numbers

[Verse 1]

It's not what I thought it would feel like

The praise that's seeping in

It goes as quick as it comes

Like it's carried by some strong wind

And I know what it seems like

That I'm thinking on leaving again

[Verse 2]

Well, maybe I'm just a little shallow

And if it's true that still waters run deep

Well, then I've been swiftly moving

Can the others see right through me?

My masquerades and my illusions

That I crafted so carefully

Well, I'm just a broken illusion

I'm not as tough as I oughta be

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 3]

Well, the flowers my mama bought me

They only keep for two weeks

And then they just become another reminder

That he's never gonna write to me

And I spoke my fears to my mother

She said, "Honey, just let it be"

And then she sent some pretty flowers

With the hopes that my hurtin' they would ease

[Verse 4]

Well, you would think that I should feel happy

But the truth is I feel spent

And the numbers they've been climbing

Just not enough to pay my rent

I didn't used to think much of the numbers

But now they're always racing through my head

And I guess that I grew a little shallow

When I forsook the words that my mama once said

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 5]

And now my thoughts are slow and twisted

And I can't seem to break them down

Which leaves my words false in meaning

I feel sad when I speak out loud

I thought I was to be a better lover

When I got out of that town

But I'm still no good in lovin'

And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow

[Outro]

Yes, I'm still no good in lovin'

And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow