actually happy

I think I'm actually happy
For the first time in a while
And honestly it's kinda weird
I'm finally sleeping better
Remembering how to smile
And not wanting to disappear
For so long I let you drag me down
Been a year and six months now
But I think I've finally figured out
How to fall back in love with myself
No, I don't need you
To be me anymore
You've been taking up space
I don't know what for
I don't need you
To be me anymore
No I think I'm doing just fine
I, I
I, I
Think I'm doing just fine
Maybe it's just the weather
Or a getting older thing
But I'm caring less what people think
I'm learning how to zoom out
How to slow down
Get out my head and just breathe
For so long I let you run my life
Didn't know which decisions were mine
But I think I finally realized
Living for somebody else is a waste of my time
I don't need you
To be me anymore
You've been taking up space
I don't know what for
I don't need you
To be me anymore
No I think I'm doing just fine
I, I
I, I
Think I'm doing just fine
And it feels so good
Oh, I got a little off track
But I made it back
And it feels so good
Oh, yeah after everything
I'm me again
And I'm actually happy
Hm