getting older

I'm jealous of the kid I used to be
Who's never had a panic attack or heard of anxiety
& Thought getting good grades was everything
I'm living in the same old world but now I see it so differently
I used to think by now
I'd have it figured out but
I've learned as I get older
The world only gets colder
My heart breaks in brand new places
Every single time &
I'm getting sick & tired
Of being sick & tired
Watching as the years go floating by
Is this what getting older is like
Last month I broke down in the grocery store
I had just checked out, then I sat down right there on the floor
I'm not even sure what I was crying for
All I know is I never used to cry like that before
Waiting for the day
This'll go away but
I've learned as I get older
The world only gets colder
My heart breaks in brand new places
Every single time &
I'm getting sick & tired