Better Moments

I don’t like to let myself

Get closer than what you just felt

It never really ends that well

And I’m sick of carrying that guilt

Promise I don’t want your help

I’m doing just fine by myself

You should look somewhere else

Cause I’m stuck inside my own hell

And I can feel pain the moment that I wake up and

Im the worst of luck to anyone that I let in

I hate that Im wasting

Every single better moment

And I hate that I’m faced with

Losing everyone I’m closest to

And I know that could mean you

Never wanted you to see that

But I went and wasted

Every single better moment

With you

I’m sick of always fighting it

And I fall asleep with that regret

Feel it underneath my skin

I accept that i get what I get

Made it so damn hard just to let you in

Told myself I never would again

Ive been driving city lines away from my regret

And you could never understand it

I hate that Im wasting

Every single better moment

And I hate that I’m faced with

Losing everyone I’m closest to

And I know that could mean you

Never wanted you to see that

But I went and wasted

Every single better moment

I’m faded

Frustrated

Spinning in my bed, staring up at the ceiling

I hate that Im wasting

Every single better moment

And I hate that I’m faced with

Losing everyone I’m closest to

And I know that could mean you

Never wanted you to see that

But I went and wasted

Every single better moment