trying

(Okay)
I hold onto patience for them
And reflect their mannerisms when
I can't focus
Tired of selfish things I've said
Never but never really spoken
I can't take back what I did when I forgot
So, I lack poise, and, yeah, I noticed
But I drove it into the
Ground like it was poison
And I said I got a problem, will you show me?
But just because I need your help
Don't mean it's important and now
None of us knows
Major we don't know who we are you know
We don't know where we are
Maybe we're on a spaceship you know
Going to another planet
Maybe we're all insane you know
Or maybe this is all a mirage, an illusion
Perhaps that's who we are
Just know I'm trying
But I faked you out on my end
And behind those shaded words
I partake in limbo, not violence
Cause I'm just trying to feel like
More than my entry
I can't tell by deceit I'm alright and
It's 'bout time I show I've been lying
'Cause I can't wait back for it here
The only fear I'm in love with is pointless
I don't need luck
I need somebody's help for a minute
'Cause I've tried long enough
Pray I lost, I am done
Change my mind 'cause I'll be broken
If there's nothing left to say
Just know I'm trying
But within a second it's timed in
Minding every word
And it's taking over afraid to love
But I will keep you around
You say I'm onto something, I doubt it
I find God in mind
Now I'm waking up and taking on my pride
(B-Brakence)