The Vanishing Act (Companion Version)

Were you surprised that we never spoke?
And in the still of the night when nothing stirs I woke
And I gathered up some clothes
I never planned on this, but it's the way it goes
And now it all seems too familiar
Like pages turned on calendars
Get the same 12 months to fuck things up
Year after year
Yeah, I can't believe how down I am
Like a well
I'm being lowered in
The water stops
The bucket drops
It's farther and farther down
Farther and farther down

Well, I guess you never knew me
Or at least not well enough
And so I fill my gut
With that dark red wine
'Til my brain shuts off
And my eyes go blind
You won't see me there
In that thick black air
Yeah, I'll finally make somethin' disappear
'Cause I've been practicin' disappearing
And I think that I got it down
Now there's no sun, just a cellar
Nowhere is sky
Just that black, black dirt, y-oh
Now there is no sun
It's just a cellar
Nowhere is sky
Just that black, black, black, black dirt
Expanding outwards
Just echoes for answers
Not that it matters
It's backward
It's forwards
Unhappy lovers
With baskets of flowers
Use them as markers
The place where your bed once stood
A time when it still felt good
But you'll get that feeling back
You just need some time to think
And to add up the Hell
Get it straight in your mind
But to calculate costs
That may take some time
But I'm sure i'll get to feeling better
Yeah I just need some time to drink
So, I fill my gut
With that blood red wine
'Til my insides swim
And my veins unwind
I'll be lyin' there
In that hot white air
Once that something's gone
It may never reappear
It may never reappear
Yeah it may never-uh reappear