ROCK BOTTOM

I got a question
Will I make a sound
When I hit the ground
With nobody else around?
When it all falls down
Rock bottom where the lost get found

It's getting hard for me to keep my head straight
Had a heavy heart, now, I'm carrying dead weight
Digging my own grave
I did it my own way
I'm buried alive with all the shit that I don't say
It's deeper than six feet, I'm barely alive
My apartment is a coffin that I'm carried inside
And I'm coughing
'Cause I'm often
Off of various highs
Got me wondering does anybody care if he dies
I inhale and I just hold it
I'm running from everything, my hamstring swollen
I pulled it, stop
Popped the ankle out of the socket
Now, I'm looking at it trying not to vomit

I'm sick of this feeling
I'm going psycho
I'm sick of being sick of this feeling
I'm going psycho
I'm sick of being sick of being sick of this feeling
It go in cycles
It go round and round and round

I got a question
Will I make a sound
When I hit the ground
With nobody else around?
When it all falls down
Rock bottom where the lost get found
Will I make a sound
When I hit the ground
With nobody else around?
When it all falls down
Rock bottom where the lost get found

The highs feel like lows
Old friends start to feel like foes
Silver lining but it feel like gold
Is I've been here for so long it feel like home
Like I'm right where I'm supposed to be
Physically, emotionally
Digging down deep 'til I can't see the opening
Changing for the people I don't know
'Til everybody close to me
Looking at a ghost of me
And I don't got a rope
Had a ladder but it broke
Doesn't matter 'cause I'd rather be alone
Got my phone out of data and it's low on the battery
Ope! There goes, what a tragedy
I build a wall and moat, that's my strategy
When I'm gone, I hope you not mad at me
I'm done talking about it, I tried therapy
You're still not hearing me

I'm sick of this feeling
I'm going psycho
I'm sick of being sick of this feeling
I'm going psycho
I'm sick of being sick of being sick of this feeling
It go in cycles
It go round and round and round

I got a question
Will I make a sound
When I hit the ground
With nobody else around?
When it all falls down
Rock bottom where the lost get found
Will I make a sound
When I hit the ground
With nobody else around?
When it all falls down
Rock bottom where the lost get found