First Christmas

Waiting at the door while you hug your brother
Hand in your pocket and a gift in the other
I'm kind of nervous but free
Heart in the home of a newish lover
Daughter of a worried Jewish mother
Told me to Smile and say please

There's lights on the tree getting carried away
Cousins playing songs on the floor like a stage
It's magic
I wish I could stay

But all that I know, this night is perfect
Safe and warm
I spent my life searching for more
Just to find it on a winter afternoon
Saying how lucky am I to spend
My very first Christmas with you
Christmas with you

Talks on the couch and trips to the attic
Drinks on the porch and we're watching the classics
Chevy Chase is driving on the screen
This snow makes New York feel like a small town
It's only been a few years since I came out
With you, I've never felt so me

These lights on the trees getting carried away
Cousins playing songs on the floor like a stage
It's magic, I wish I could stay

All that I know, this night is perfect
Safe and warm
I spent my life searching for more
Just to find it on a winter afternoon
Saying how lucky am I to spend
My very first Christmas with you
First Christmas with you

And no one ever understands me
Your mom is telling me I'm family
Next year, can we do it all again?
Same time, same place
I text you when the plane is landing
I'll admit, I'm already planning
Next year, can we do it all again?
Next Christmas day