Small Talk

It's been a few weeks
I thought I'd reach out
I hope this message finds you well
And you're doing alright
I kinda miss you
No, that's a lie
I miss you so much that it hurts
And I cry every night
It's in the mornings
That's when I remember
That you're gone, you won't be calling my phone ever
So I go on a walk
I talk to myself
It might seem crazy but it's the only thing that helps
Everything is changing
Why do we have to speak like strangers?
Can't do small talk with you
Cuz every time that I do
All I wanna say is something really big
Like don't you wanna come home?
I hate being alone
All our conversations leave me wanting more
Cuz we'll always be too big
Yeah we'll always be too big
For small talk
You sound so formal
So far-removed
From the lazy ways we spent our afternoons
But what can I expect?
Cuz we're not together
So now all we talk about is work and weather
It's so serious
God, I hate this
Why are you acting like you haven't seen me naked?
All of our history
Just forgotten
Now I understand what it means to be heartbroken
Everything is changing
Why do we have to speak like strangers?
Can't do small talk with you
Cuz every time that I do
All I wanna say is something really big
Like don't you wanna come home?
I hate being alone
All our conversations leave me wanting more
Cuz we'll always be too big
Yeah we'll always be too big
For small talk
(Voice recording)Oh God, it's like grieving someone
Grieving someone who's still alive
I really don't want to like move forward
Without this person in my life in the same way
But I have to
And that's like the hardest part