Seeing Things

Took an inventory of my fears and resentments
Everything I ever loved, everything that made me nervous
At the very least it led me to you, I hope it happened for a reason
I hope I play it backwards and there's a hidden meaning

But I can't tell if you're really here
Yesterday, I said your name three times in the mirror
And nothing happened
I wish you'd fuck with my head
Sneak up right behind me, scare me to death
But nothing happens

I don't wanna take your kindness and weaponize it
I don't wanna point it at myself, turn it into something violent
It's just that when you're rational, I think that you hate me
Nightmares in reverse, I don't run and you don't chase me

I can't tell if you're really here
Yesterday, I said your name three times in the mirror
But nothing happened
I wish you'd fuck with my head
Sneak up right behind me, scare me to death
But nothing happens

I bet we're in a room and I'm checking my blindspots
I bet I think something is wrong and it's not
It's not, it's not, it's not, it's not
It's not, it's not

Seeing each other seeing things
Seeing each other seeing things
But nothing happens
I wish you'd fuck with my head
Sneak up right behind me, scare me to death
But nothing happens

I hope something happens