Imperfect

Read Chris Webby's Explanation of "Imperfect"

[Hook: Jaye Michelle]

Insecurities and anxiety

Kept internally, trapped inside of me

And I really just don't know why it don't show

On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the

Insecurity and anxiety

Kept internally and trapped inside of me

Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show

On the surface, I'm imperfect

[Verse 1: Chris Webby]

Tryna learn to embrace all my imperfections

But the voices in my head got me waking up sweatin'

Alprazolam, point five milligrams in my hand when I'm stressin'

But self medication isn't helpin', second guessing while I'm dealing with depression

Pills to wake up, pills to go to sleep

Habitually, continuously

Chemically imbalanced lookin' in the mirror like this isn't me

And I'm left to wonder who the fuck I am

And my listeners been witness as I try to find myself and trust I can

And that's why I'll always love my fans

Without y'all I'd be off the deep end, every other weekend

But this game is like the coliseum, you'll get taken out the moment that you weaken

People comin' for my neck, like they Boba Fett, and I got a bounty on my head

Givin' me insomnia but when I'm sleepin' all these demons'll surround me in my bed

Now I'm feelin' like there's really no escape

I used to go and roll a J

But even that don't work anymore, they just never seem to go away

Need some novocaine to control the pain

And now these mother fuckers know the name

I thought that'd make it better but it's worse, maybe it's too late to ever hope for change

So I'm sayin'..

[Hook: Jaye Michelle]

Insecurities and anxiety

Kept internally, trapped inside of me

And I really just don't know why it don't show

On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the

Insecurity and anxiety

Kept internally and trapped inside of me

Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show

On the surface, I'm imperfect

[Verse 2: Chris Webby]

I've always been too nice and too trusting

And time after time that approach left me with nothing

But some drug problems and a lot of debt

Feel the noose gettin' tighter on my neck

Try to tell myself that I ain't stoppin' yet

But it's gettin' harder tryna calm the stress

I got turned down as a youngster, by every girl I ever liked in class

It's prolly why I talk about the chicks I'm (beep) now when I write my raps

Like some sort of validation of a mechanism of defense

Like I'm not depressed, yea I'm havin' sex

But I'm still alone, and I'm still a mess

Chain smokin' cigarettes by the light post

Cherry glowin' usin' that to light mo'

Breathin' in the chemicals and hold it, whiskey got me loaded, damn I need a life coach

I'm a nice guy, people take advantage of me and my money then they step out

Leave me left out, full of self doubt

Life line's got a low thread count

And after all the years of being taunted

Hated on, not bein' wanted

Bein' thought of, in the wrong light

Now I'm feelin' like I'm bein' haunted

By these demons, I try to leave em

But it's like I'm swimmin' in Epoxy, they always stop me

Try to keep my head above it but the waves are gettin' choppy

[Hook: Jaye Michelle]

Insecurities and anxiety

Kept internally, trapped inside of me

And I really just don't know why it don't show

On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the

Insecurity and anxiety

Kept internally and trapped inside of me

Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show

On the surface, I'm imperfect