Lord Knows

[Chorus: Justin Clancy]

Now can you promise not to tell nobody that I mighta just lost control?

I smoke, I drink, tryna numb that pain, but it don't work no more

And doctor, can you give me something, something to feel whole?

I'm falling deeper than I ever have before, Lord knows

[Verse 1: Chris Webby]

I been feeling like I'm racing the clock

Minute hand going HAM on the face of the watch

Storyline playing, but I stray from the plot

As I'm praying that all the medication I popped

And chopped down in lines on the countertop stops

All the voices in my head, I turn 'em down just a notch

The devil on my shoulder, he a fucking chatterbox

Always tryna get me canceled and carried out by the cops

But I'm still here, pack another beer from the twelve pack

Give a cheers to the years and the setbacks

Never took twelve steps, I confess that

That ain't really in my plan yet, life a chess match

And I'm in it for the long haul with y'all

Keep a queen running gambit, the pawns'll fall

I'm the king, stand tall, and all and all

I'm on 'til it's all gone or they call the law

Yeah, I smoke, I drink, crush pills on the sink

And I know they judge me, but I don't care what y'all think

I'm just tryna make it through life, it's slow and slippery as a rink

And we all know this shit could end in a blink

I'm just tryna do my best like you, you know?

They told me life was a bitch and it's true, you know?

But no matter what I felt or what hand that I'm dealt

I'ma keep pushing through, you know? Yeah

[Chorus: Justin Clancy]

Now can you promise not to tell nobody that I mighta just lost control?

I smoke, I drink, tryna numb that pain, but it don't work no more

And doctor, can you give me something, something to feel whole?

I'm falling deeper than I ever have before, Lord knows

[Post-Chorus: Justin Clancy]

Let me break, I got my back against the wall (Lord knows)

And I feel that weight no matter what, it's all my fault (Lord knows)

[Verse 2: Chris Webby]

A false start's what I got up in a race with

The best to ever do it, so I try to keep pace with

Reaching for a makeshift life raft, anxious

Keeping off of opportunity so I can take it

Life is a war, no rules of engagement

People climbing over each other to hit the A-list

Minotaur caught in the mazes

With the woman in the red dress as I'm lost in the matrix

Had Morpheus give me the red pill

And I crush it down and snort it through a hundred dollar bill

Anything to make me feel

Anything to make the simulation that we living in seem real

'Cause Lord knows, seen highs, but more lows

School of hard knocks, had a full course load

Tryna get right with myself 'fore the door close

Swimming through the gins, Merlots and Bordeaux, I'm

So numb that I wish that I felt

All the pain in my brain but it really just melts away

I need something just to live with myself

What the doctor got me, shit, it really just helps

For a moment, so those times, I cherish and hold it

Learn to deal with it 'cause I never could control it

They judge me, I get it, I'm troubled, I'm reckless

But at least I fucking own it

[Bridge: Justin Clancy]

And if I die before I wake

Don't let them take my soul away

I seen things that no one knows

But this just the life I chose, I said

I swear I been through it all

Them highs, them lows, it's protocol

Yeah, I know where I'm from, but where I go

Lord knows

[Outro: Justin Clancy]

Let me break, I got my back against the wall (Lord knows)

And I feel that weight no matter what, it's all my fault (Lord knows)