Autumn Always

It's always autumn in my head I wonder why?
I hate the feeling when our conversations die
Sink like a stone into the silence I despise
I'll never see you again
The tempest gathers in a late September sky
I feel it crawling up the coast with the rising tide
I lock the doors and board the windows up in time
I feel it coalescing
I almost hope it gets inside

I know
That I kept your ghost
Instead of moving on
And I hope
That I'm left below
When the tempest overflows

It's always autumn underneath these broken words
Unfinished arguments that lay on your grave unheard
This peace and quiet is a blessing and a curse
I'll never see you again
The thunder speaks to me in tones I can't discern
The rain is heavy on the street as the hailstones burst
Maybe this deluge is the ending I deserve
The coast is overflowing
I almost hope it's growing worse

I know
That I kept your ghost
Instead of moving on
And I hope
That I'm left below
When the tempest overflows

I swear I'm gonna die here in time
With the only thing that I fear in life
These permanent regrets I can't hide
No time to make amends
Lightning strike me down now
I'll leave my fate
Underneath these turbulent seas that break
It's not the thought of (clap clap) my death I hate
It's my last moment alive
I can't take my own mind

I know
That I kept your ghost
Instead of moving on
And I hope
That I'm left below
When the tempest overflows

I wish I had been warned
I spent so much time inside the eye of the storm
I couldn't see the signs
I'm on the shore
The storm will take me if I don't die from remorse
I let this be my life