Ambulances

I remember ambulances pulling up when I was feeling tired
And I couldn't put a fire out again
I remember glove compartments full of stuff that you would never hide
And I would try to justify it in my head
I remember nights I felt like throwing up from looking at a photograph
I swore that I would never put aside
I remember hearing I don't know enough, so I gave up
On showing up to fake a conversation as I'm watching you die

Those pictures were faded
When you came back into frame
Like a saving grace back in 1918
A refuge from the rain
'Cause your eyes shine bright through the downpour
Like montreux in the fall
Like a clear blue sky on the heels of a storm
That I thought was the end of us all

When you call out my name
The melody in your voice replaces memories that I hate
The pessimist that's inside can't find a terrible point to make
It's incredible how you shaped the sky
You turned the tempest into a sunrise

I remember bearing with anxiety and caring if you lied to me
And holding on to hope I hid inside
I remember swearing by sobriety to guarantee a side of me
Inherited would never see the light
I remember that commitment falling through and thinking I would follow you
And driving when I couldn't see a sign
I remember years I spent in solitude were haunted by the thought of you
And conversations we could never have 'cause you died

Those pictures were faded
When you came back into frame
Like a saving grace on the tagliamento
A refuge from the pain
'Cause the rain won't make any difference
Your laughter is a radiant light
Into the past to a dangerous time
The ending is something that we get to write

When you call out my name
The melody in your voice replaces memories that I hate
The pessimist that's inside can't find a terrible point to make
It's incredible how you shaped the sky
You turned the tempest into a sunrise
You turned a hurricane to a clear blue skyline
You made me unafraid of my own mind
The world breaks everyone, but with you, I know I'm fine
I'll never let you go again
(I'll never let you go again)

I'll never let you go again
(I'll never let you go again)