"When I Was Beautiful" is a single by Ella Jane, released 12th December 2025. Full lyrics are available below.
Lyrics
When I Was Beautiful
Back when I was beautiful
I never understood I was
And I don't think I ever will
Compared to just how beautiful I was
A child, and just a child
And that alone can make me cry
I hate to think I envy her
Hate the way it's twisting me inside
Been peering through kaleidoscopes
Watching everything I know
Get infinitely complicated
Multiplying cells like cancer
I used to take up space
Now I slink around this place
The walls adorned with strangers
Smiles spilling out the frames
Then I believed in everything
Everything
Now I know better
Wish that I didn't
Oh
Back when I said what I want
I never knew to laugh it off
The first time that I let it soften
That's the day the anger started
Too young to tell I was
No one else I could become
On the beach with my twin brother
Digging holes to India
Then I believed in everything
Everything
Now I know better
Wish that I didn't
Oh, all I want
The first time I swam
The first time I screamed
Everything
The earliest Junes
The first cold Decembers
Guess no one remembers
Can I just count up all the things I love?
Pile them in a flatbed truck
Take the joy in fistfuls
Try to keep it simple