Familiar Sadness Is Too Comforting

I'm angry at you
For something I can't do
I care too much
But don't try enough

Caution what I choose
'Cause there's too much to lose
I missed you today
Can't help but feel like a pain

I'm too scared to leave my room
Don't want to see what I can't choose
Everyone's watching but nobody cares
Everyone's laughing, the joke is there's no one there

Why do I miss the uncertainty of being fourteen?
Familiar sadness is too comforting
And I don't wanna hurt again
I just want back old friends

I'm too scared to leave my room
Don't want to see what I can't choose
Everyone's watching but nobody cares
Everyone's laughing, the joke is there's no one there

I'm terrified of being found out
That progress is fake and my thoughts are still loud
Nobody's watching, I need you to care
Nobody's laughing 'cause nobody's there